Tuesday, 16 December 2014

Feeling better

For the past six weeks life has been so different. After a mega steroid injection into my knee, I've had a lot less pain, been a lot more mobile and generally felt more human. Hurrah!

It's been wonderful to get out and about, take the Little One on some mini adventures, meet up with friends. But it's also been a bit of a shock to the system.

Feeling better is a positive change, but it's still a change, which always brings tricky questions to deal with. I've found myself in a bit of a pickle trying to figure out what I should be doing - should I be getting involved in all the things I couldn't do before? There is so much I could do, so how do I decide what's important? There have been days when I have overdone it and ended up sore and exhausted, and days when I have not done much and felt bad about it. But I'm so thankful for what I've learned about my value over recent months - that it doesn't lie in how 'useful' I am.

I'm now beginning to feel the steroid wearing off and my legs are getting creaky again. Coupled with a recent change of medication, it's reasonable to expect there might be some bad weeks to come (let's hope this isn't the case, but it helps to be prepared). I'm so glad I've focused on my bucket list of fun things to do with the Little One while I can, rather than trying to save the world.